50 days left

Today marks the end of term 1. This term I was in school for 3 weeks out of 10 and I feel useless in a way. I didn't contribute much to classes as I was focused on just catching up more than anything. So what do I have to show for 3 weeks of classes? I have friendships that don't feel genuine and certain people I'm too shy to talk to. But I also have new understanding on concepts I had never known about and my art doesn't feel shallow, I feel connected to the pieces I make. I feel unattached to almost everything and everyone. But being unattached I feel like we associate with cold and shallow but I think we ignore the feeling of peace and calm our life not defined by certain people. Why do people let romance consume them and their identity. If you yearn for a relationship you need to be single. The moment you don't want someone is the moment you should date, when at peace with loneliness you will never be happier. I couldn't date someone even if I really did like him because I know we are at different points in our lives. I finish school in 50 days and I want to travel and to move away I don't want to doubt my decision for a relationship.  Stop flirting and be at peace with yourself and trust they will come to you if it is meant to be. Don't chase what the world thinks we need to be happy chase the future you want.